PaintMeTheSunrise

The disaster lays itself out In front of us, We try to find something to hold on to But for him there is no beauty In imperfection, No merit in A well-earned failure As the fog rolls in, And the mist cools down Inflamed hearts, impassioned souls No one knows what to say As the night breaks.

Maybe my inspiration Is coming from the wrong places And I really have no basis For the things that I’m saying, But I believe in redemption And I believe in love And the power of forgiveness To help us rise above The squalor we seem to be caught in Where everyone is swine And the filth in which we’re rollin Hate, money, drama and a waste of time. But my biggest belief is, This can’t be stressed enough We think we’re so tiny but We’re something bigger than us One day when the world falls away, One day when our lives are done We’ll sink into the earth And we will all be one.

Well I'm gonna do something great, I don't really care what you say Because if you break my wings, I will fly anyway And if you crush my heart From you I'll simply part - I've learned there is far too much love In this world, to settle for naught. All these sickly hearts and souls, I wish they had been taught To love, but they're black holes And all the happiness we could have had Is lost, Like dandelions blown into the wind, Scattered to bloom in fairer conditions.

When you're stuck in darkness, Just let a little sunlight in Because how could you be happy When you’re all lost enslaved in sin And how could you even smile When there's no one by your side You pushed everyone away for miles So that you could hide In hate and anger and bile A hiding place so vile Looking on all the while As your dignity is defiled You once were a man Now you barely pass for a beast I reach to hold your hand But you bite it and I retreat Please open up the window Let a fresh breeze through I don’t know where you've been now Since cold winds blew me away from you I’m playing in the sunlight You’re

But the consequences of everything Weigh down on us, unforeseen As the balance of what we're becoming Tips out of favor from what we've been Our lives are not ours alone But a compilation of everything All tangible and profound in one Which endures even as we are crumbling The day dawns time and time again And the sun sets in its turn But when our eyes are closed do we even flinch As the sky above us burns? There is no time or place for this Except the one we create The lives of others are formed as we live The wake of our actions deemed fate.

The world is so quiet I'm the loudest thing around I walked outside this afternoon And nothing made a sound Even my squeaky old truck Drove along without protest And I found it to be my luck That silent evenings are the best For Christmas Eve is halfway through The sky is clear My mind is too Silence just what I needed to hear On this empty afternoon Sorting through my thoughts With the pale moon Curling in the sky, wrought I try to recall now How I was feeling then But the truth is better found In fresh markings of pen On paper Which take your mind far away A place of torture Regret nostalgia and pain Or to the forest

Well just so you know, I never wanted this to end And I'll keep running around in circles If I could just pretend That you're still chasing after me If you let me in I swear I'd mend The things you let nobody see The brokenness inside you Dreams of what you wanted to be Permeate your mind And make homes for themselves Secret gardens you'll never find Or be able to weed out by yourself Darling dear I'm telling you You need the love of someone else. In our own worlds we're so blind We need someone else to look inside us To teach us how we've defined The things in our lives In such a way that we aren't all That we're cracked

And when you're falling into nothing, You'll hold on to anything you can Well I'm floating in the emptiness, And my hands reached out to a man And I held on to him and I hope He'll be strong enough to hold me down. And when you're stumbling through the darkness, You'll love any light you see See we're all trapped in the nothingness Of what we want to be All of us have been through things Which we'd never wish to dream And when you're freezing cold You'll cherish any warmth you hold Well I'm looking for my someone I'm searching for just someone I'm trying to find a someone Who will care as much as I care. And when you're just

If you look into the sky you'll find me Somewhere, a tiny star in a distant galaxy If you look hard maybe you'll see My face in what we always wished to be Far away, beyond the clouds Past the sea, the horizon, no bounds Into places which in memory create silent sounds I hope that your words will always ring loud Somewhere past the stratosphere, Or maybe through the roaring sea One day my longing heart will find you Only hoping that you will find me.

Yeah we can hide, Sit away safe inside And pretend that we're happy and secure and warm Or we can just dance in the rain Dance in the face of all the pain♥

My windpipes are masterfully joined to my fingers through vicarious connection my fingers sing what I cannot. Digital digits, digitally galloping through springing mindful grass, tasting feeling- soulfully basic thought forms to bring home to me. My fingers print beautiful visions onto paper papyrus, whatever seems to be left In the goldhouse, My prayer is finished.

the sun is a badly bruised knee, blood leaking through the mud. for him there was no such thing as a beautiful failure, sunsets made him impatient. smog is sprayed across the sky, a lonely purposeless light shakes its feathers and begins to gleam. surrender was a sweet bathtub of petals in which he sat up like a baby refusing to be laid down. on a day like this we sat on the roof like two pigeons, horns blew smoke across citytops. he was not the one who fell down. the light resisting muddied pink is his silhouette. he was not the one who lied.

A soft sigh of “I’m sorry…” Echoes of despair cling. Why? Was I not enough? Did the blood mean more to you than love? Come back. Please. You know I care. Don’t vanish like everyone else, Disappearing in thin air. I need you more, But you need me less. Always with that little sigh, I hear the unspoken “Goodbye…” Even when silence is your only reply. Come back. Please turn back, From the shadows that beckon you on. You are stronger than you know, Even without my love. Ever long I plead with you, Only to be pushed aside. The gleam of the knife, And the thrill of the blood and pain… It

I hold on to the slender threads that fray so quick. I grip them with my fingers, of which the bones are snapping. I watch her strike the match And set fire to my heart strings. Now I am at the top. Cold Refined Alone Unsafe Inhuman Standing on the tip of my toes There is no more room on my pedestal The droolies scream, reach out to me My stilettos in their skulls. There is one who catches my eye She is nothing like the girl who burned my threads She leaves the bodies in a stack, She killed them to reach the top. She is Cold Refined Alone Unsafe Inhuman I reach my hand to her. The tips of our fingers touch. She lunges, slaps me away

I do not feel myself today. I feel my self has gone astray. My clouded thoughts fall from the shelf and chip away my mental health. I do not feel myself today. All color seems to fade to gray. I fret and rub my wrinkled brow. I must consolidate somehow. I do not feel myself today. My stomach ate my guts away. My organs twist and cauterize from fires I've started with my mind. I do not feel myself today. I almost wish that I could pray, that god would open up his arms, protecting me from any harm. I do not feel myself today. I do concede and humbly lay my head to rest. My body's worn. I hope I wake not so forlorn.

When I was little I thought the term “jaded” was funny Inevitably I would envision a person Encased in a precious-green-stone coating Wearing a sour expression And it would make me giggle Now when I think of jaded I just think of me Sitting on the bed Staring at the wall And wondering how someone who said he loved you For two years Could just walk out the door one day And never once look back

The soft moan of darkness Rest upon each trembling earlobe Lost in cavernous reflection And the slow, quiet, humbling fall When the skin freezes over By the icy, eternal overture We’ll plead no more As the motherly dark nears To drain away our suffrage   To vanquish all living strife We slip carefully Into the cherished goodnight Done away with mourning In our gradual,willing embrace And so the world dims To our fond farewell Lingering mute As the gratefully untroubled

Her eyes are dark and clouded, Swallowed by thoughts you'll never know, Her perfect smile is shrouded, By the whisper of pain below. Her hair depicts a vibrancy, The she wishes to someday feel, But the colours - like her emotions, Are far from being real. Her mind is taunted and torn, By agonizing voices and angry lies, Still every day she finds the strength, To put on a beautiful disguise. Though her façade has its holes, Her personality always charms, And on those days the darkness reigns, I'll hold her tightly in my arms.

Let me float up to the sky Where the lights will pass me by And I can view them from above A gaze filled with wonder and love Light up this world Show the galaxy that Earth is here I will be your herald Telling the sky what it needs to hear Just let me go Set me free I belong to the stars I will look back fondly on this world A place where the lights will guide you home My home is the sky Oh let me float on by I will be content to simply drift in the wonder that is our universe Or even merely Earth's orbit Just look at those lights They mirror the stars Oh let me float away Telescope please take me home